Month of April .

Where should I start first? let me see, oh ya! firstly, I got everything I wanted all this time but my belief is when you've got everything, soon your gonna lose something in future. But then don't mind thou, cause I'm not the one who invent my destiny. I just let it be what it suppose to be. The second comes in mind is that, there's this allure guy. His the same class with me. He sits at the second row start from the left and sit in th third table on the left. His quite annoying but even his annoying, he got this thing to himself until I can't kept my eyes of him. When he look at me, I got this butterfly in me. If he read this, I'm sure he got a cheek blush but that's okay. I'm very looking forward to see him smile all the time. Without him, I won't be able to be so diligent to go to school. Third of all, everyone knows we are the last candidates that took PMR exam right? so, here's a thing. PMR is coming this October if I'm not mistaken. I'm dreaming to be in one of the science class. and because of that, I have to study hard in science and maths to be in one of those class. At least 2 or 3 A's then I can enter those class. Well, I'm very nervous with those exam or exam coming this May. will be doing a lot of practice and exercise like in primary. Going to be stressful this year, but kindly to say I can do it! go Chelsea!

I say I raise my white flag, I lose in this battlefield..I'm sorry.

Since this 1 whole week, I put this one big fake smile just because I have a huge fight with my dad. what the >< did I just do until he get pissed all the sudden? I even sleep in the living room because he lock my room. I only eat in the afternoon for sake. If I was leaving the house, swear he will be more than a hungry ghost. I mean, what did I do wrong? He even told me he don't want to sent me to school starting today. So, what can I say? Ready for the letters. Might not going to school this form 3. I try to play a song outside the corridor and still nothing happen. I even wrote a million text message to him that sounds like this;

dear dad,

I'm sorry if I have make whatever it is mistake that made you mad at me and turn your back on me. I'm raising my flag saying I surrender to you. somehow, I notice that you don't really want to talk to me since Tuesday last week. Whatever it is, I'm sorry.

chelsea

For sake, now his telling me that his not going to send me to school. Fine, be that way. I'm going to sulk all day. Not gonna talk just sing and dance to make me feel okay.

end X(

" I love you "

Kawan memang kawan tapi apa berlaku bila kawan suka kawan lah ! mesti orang itu bernasib kan ? sebab dia tahu kekurangan dan kelebihan seseorang itu . Seperti cerita cinta saya . Tak semua orang dapat grek macam itu kan ? Dahlah dia lelaki melayu pertama saya cinta . Apatah yang lain lain itu .. Kalau diceritakan semuanya , memang habis satu page ni . Tapi tak nak lah cerita semua , saya tahu orang yang terasa nanti pasti senyum seorang . Confirm punya . Tak perlu nak agak agak . Tapikan , yang pelik dia ... Inilah kali pertama saya hirau sebarang halangan . Dulu , susah payah nak layan halangan itu sampaikan gaduh ini itu . Tapi ini berbeza . Yalah , jarang dapat lelaki seperti ini . One in a million ! Tak pun , one and only . Ngee . Terus terang lah , saya memang bermimpi nak ada lelaki seperti dia ini . Semuanya seperti ciri ciri saya . Yabest ! torang ada ? xda ! HAHAHA .

CHELSEA BULAN

Simply in love with you

Dear readers,

       I got a stories to tell you guys. Lately, I have fallen for my own friend last month. Before I got so close with him, he was a very special friend to me. He really accompanied me when I was not in a mood or need someone to talk with. He usually makes me smile and laugh. It's like half of the month since 2011, we were so close. In fact, I did like him. I admit. Yes, I did but I was with someone else. When he told me that he wanted to be single starting next year, I was surprised. He finally make those decision. We talk a lot in the phone, class? not really, kinda? maybe. as the days came by, I have this huge feelings towards him. I don't know why but why would I spend my whole life wishing for someone to come but in yet, they are right in front of you. So, here the sense when it comes to jealousy. On January, He did have a partner and so do I. Saturday morning, he came with a smile on his face to school. I swear, I was really sure of those feeling. When I was doing the painting, he came and play around. well, I was very happy back then. Instead of playing around, I wish he was with me. Other than that, I went to the toilet to wash the painting on my hands. When I got back, I saw him across the pathway. seeing him holding his phones. Okay! this is where the weird feelings come. I walk to him and disturb him while he was on the phone. Seriously, I was fucking jealous! I can't dare to take those risk to see. Even, when I was sweeping our class.. I keep on looking at him. Now, that's unacceptable how I got jealous. I mean, why would I right? He was just a friend to me not more than that. After all the works and job has settle, we went outside to hang out. I was the only one who alone there. He came to me and ask me what's wrong? In fact, I know it's normal thing to do. asking what's wrong? how are you? but with his look and my feeling, when it connect.. Dude, I can see the sparkles. Then, I know I like him. I mean like like like him. It's like faking myself, trying to lie saying I'm not in love. But deed yes, I'm! maybe it's impossible for me to be with him. Maybe not. Let's just make it simple, it's just complicated.

Sincerely,
CHELSEA BULAN 

Got you right where I want you .

Maybe I think your cute and funny . Maybe I think I'm in love with you . How if I told you that I like you ? How if I told you that I just want you right where you standing your feet on the ground . hey ! You and me were always there for each other , wind or sunny .. we were always there , no matter what . but all this sudden , I have this feeling for you . You make me wanna said it with every words you spoke . You told me you love me . as well as I get what you said , Now I realize I wasn't the only one who felt that way . I like it how you wave to me with does smile . How I saw your face every morning . such a tragedies , how I fall for you . It's a whole sum of me . I wasn't feeling quite like myself . something inside me was sitting on the shelf but when you come .. My sorrow , you blew it away and buried it deep inside . Something about you , I would like just dig in again and look through it . Maybe , I love you ;D

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