I got a stories to tell you guys. Lately, I have fallen for my own friend last month. Before I got so close with him, he was a very special friend to me. He really accompanied me when I was not in a mood or need someone to talk with. He usually makes me smile and laugh. It's like half of the month since 2011, we were so close. In fact, I did like him. I admit. Yes, I did but I was with someone else. When he told me that he wanted to be single starting next year, I was surprised. He finally make those decision. We talk a lot in the phone, class? not really, kinda? maybe. as the days came by, I have this huge feelings towards him. I don't know why but why would I spend my whole life wishing for someone to come but in yet, they are right in front of you. So, here the sense when it comes to jealousy. On January, He did have a partner and so do I. Saturday morning, he came with a smile on his face to school. I swear, I was really sure of those feeling. When I was doing the painting, he came and play around. well, I was very happy back then. Instead of playing around, I wish he was with me. Other than that, I went to the toilet to wash the painting on my hands. When I got back, I saw him across the pathway. seeing him holding his phones. Okay! this is where the weird feelings come. I walk to him and disturb him while he was on the phone. Seriously, I was fucking jealous! I can't dare to take those risk to see. Even, when I was sweeping our class.. I keep on looking at him. Now, that's unacceptable how I got jealous. I mean, why would I right? He was just a friend to me not more than that. After all the works and job has settle, we went outside to hang out. I was the only one who alone there. He came to me and ask me what's wrong? In fact, I know it's normal thing to do. asking what's wrong? how are you? but with his look and my feeling, when it connect.. Dude, I can see the sparkles. Then, I know I like him. I mean like like like him. It's like faking myself, trying to lie saying I'm not in love. But deed yes, I'm! maybe it's impossible for me to be with him. Maybe not. Let's just make it simple, it's just complicated.
Sincerely,
