Month of April .

Where should I start first? let me see, oh ya! firstly, I got everything I wanted all this time but my belief is when you've got everything, soon your gonna lose something in future. But then don't mind thou, cause I'm not the one who invent my destiny. I just let it be what it suppose to be. The second comes in mind is that, there's this allure guy. His the same class with me. He sits at the second row start from the left and sit in th third table on the left. His quite annoying but even his annoying, he got this thing to himself until I can't kept my eyes of him. When he look at me, I got this butterfly in me. If he read this, I'm sure he got a cheek blush but that's okay. I'm very looking forward to see him smile all the time. Without him, I won't be able to be so diligent to go to school. Third of all, everyone knows we are the last candidates that took PMR exam right? so, here's a thing. PMR is coming this October if I'm not mistaken. I'm dreaming to be in one of the science class. and because of that, I have to study hard in science and maths to be in one of those class. At least 2 or 3 A's then I can enter those class. Well, I'm very nervous with those exam or exam coming this May. will be doing a lot of practice and exercise like in primary. Going to be stressful this year, but kindly to say I can do it! go Chelsea!

I say I raise my white flag, I lose in this battlefield..I'm sorry.

Since this 1 whole week, I put this one big fake smile just because I have a huge fight with my dad. what the >< did I just do until he get pissed all the sudden? I even sleep in the living room because he lock my room. I only eat in the afternoon for sake. If I was leaving the house, swear he will be more than a hungry ghost. I mean, what did I do wrong? He even told me he don't want to sent me to school starting today. So, what can I say? Ready for the letters. Might not going to school this form 3. I try to play a song outside the corridor and still nothing happen. I even wrote a million text message to him that sounds like this;

dear dad,

I'm sorry if I have make whatever it is mistake that made you mad at me and turn your back on me. I'm raising my flag saying I surrender to you. somehow, I notice that you don't really want to talk to me since Tuesday last week. Whatever it is, I'm sorry.

chelsea

For sake, now his telling me that his not going to send me to school. Fine, be that way. I'm going to sulk all day. Not gonna talk just sing and dance to make me feel okay.

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